April 30, 2009

Brett’s home safe.  Eric and Alexis went to get him last night….we were going to get him today….and today is gorgeous out side….they moved him in the rain last night….but now they get to go golfing instead.  I’ve done about 4 loads of laundry….I think Brett just quit doing it a few months ago….he said a couple of weeks, but….I don’t know….it’s okay for now, I’m happy that he’s home.  Poor Alexis still had to go to school, we were going to let her come with us today…but it’s all done….she’s been texting me….and at least negotiated some Diet Pepsi Max….My dad was a professional negotiator….no joke, he was a mediator….both my kids seemed to pick up that trait : )

I didn’t go last night because I was in class.  Meditation class….I love it!  Last year around this time I did the raw food fast and this year it has been vegan….with a lot of that being raw….obviously if you’ve been reading my blog.  Last year I had some interesting emotions come up and out….this year it’s been pretty mellow but there’s a blissful expectancy.

I feel really lucky with the program that I’m in….it’s spiritual, mental, emotional and physical.  It seems like I take care of an issue on one of these levels and it effects all the others….they are all in sync….or all off….what ever you prefer….I prefer in sync.  I’ve been reading “Raw Emotions” by Angela Stokes (She went totally raw when she was over 300 lbs….but still had the obsession with the sugars and processed foods….an amazing transformation), and watched Oprah yesterday, (Kirstie Alley was on and gained all her weight back….I would love for her to learn about this sugar/flour obsession).  You don’t have to be a labeled compulsive eater….that’s what I am….to have a problem with sugar and flour or reap the rewards of obstaining from it….I read so much that it’s a drug….the drug of choice for many….and it’s such a trap and such a prison….and we think it’s our reward.  I am so grateful that it’s necessary for me to stay away from it….otherwise I would forever trying to figure it into my eating….hey, that’s what I did do and why I don’t do that anymore ; ).  I like living like this….I like it a lot!

I just want to add also that getting here to this point hasn’t been just one thing.  For me it’s been the 12 step groups, meditation…years and years of meditation….but I love it…now there’s a drug for me : )….church, (tv and in real life) , the people that God has put into my life….they’re always just the right ones you know….even….maybe especially the ones who we think are there to drive us nuts ; )….we learn some valuable lessons from them…and they stick….and it doesn’t drive us nuts anymore when we learn them.  What led me to everything I needed?  The 3rd and 7th step prayers….and I still say them every day.

Food yesterday was:

1/4 C oat bran, pina colada smoothie, green drink, oil pill, multi vitamin/mineral.

16 oz Butternut Squash soup – Indian Style…1/2 raw and 1/2 cooked, 1 slice sprouted bread with 1/4 avocado, 1 oz puffed wheat with 1 C soy milk, 4 oz pineapple, 1/2 banana.

16 oz awesome rawsome salad with corn and 1/4 avocado, Chocolate/peanut butter smoothie.

Exercise was Pilates and a lot of spring cleaning….I’m going to do more of that….I just found out that our neighborhood garage sale is next Friday and I have a lot of things to get rid of…big things….will that equal big money?  I hope so….because then I can buy more things….my grandma used to tell me, “We need people like you Sandee….you keep our economy going”….let’s all get out there and do our parts to keep this economy alive : )

4 weeks raw – new recipes

Today was 4 weeks raw…with 2 cooked ( but not all cooked) meals in there at different points. I’m feeling better all the time…my skin looks and feels really good. I got a massage today…lucky me, my insurance covers it with the visit to the Chiropractor…yes, lucky me. The girl that does the massages really gets all the toxins out…it feels so healthy. I’ve had dreams too of “old” stuff leaving the house…I know that means releasing old baggage. That’s still a work in progress. Today we went to get Brett from his 3 day orientation…I took my raw lunch in the car and ate it on the way down…when we took him there the plan was to go out to lunch, (Alexis and me) while we were out shopping, last minute I decided to pack my raw lunch and was so glad that I did…it really is enjoyable to eat this way, I feel special and cared for…I know it sounds corny…but it’s true. I just posted these recipes…Raw Chili and Raw Mexican salad with dressing…they were really good…I haven’t given you raw lo mein with Asian dressing yet though…that will be next week.

It’s interesting, the chili sounded good, a recipe popped into my head and it was great. I saw a beautiful Asian dish as a deli…health food deli…and my mind worked out a way to have it raw…and it was soooooooooo gooooooood…..I’ve had it for dinner 2 nights in a row now….I will give that one to you soon and you really have to try it…if you just “like” Asian food I think that you’re going to love this. It’s almost like I have this little genie on my shoulder granting me raw food wishes as we go….thank you little genie : )

Day 2 of Raw food week

Today was better than yesterday…the food I picked was much easier to prepare. One thing I did that wasn’t so wise though was go to the Art Festival when it was close to eating time with no food. I did get hungry while I was there and the smells of food were all around me. Toward the end it was really getting to me, I asked God to remove the desire for it, immediately I saw two women…both really puffy…what I would look like…and did look like eating that kind of food…one had a tube top on and was dropping something gooey into her mouth…I said thanks to God, went home and had my raw lunch, felt satisfied and good. I made a raw dressing, (if you use yogurt with the raw food…I do), that was very good…I’ll post the recipe…it was a bit like ranch….I’ll call it Raw Yogurt Ranch Dressing. For tomorrow I’m going to have:


  • 1/4 Cantaloupe, 4 oz strawberries and banana
  • 1 C kefir
  • 1 T nuts, stevia, raw cacao powder


  • 4 oz sprouted garbanzo beans, 1/2 C yogurt
  • 8 oz lettuce, alfalfa sprouts and broccoli slaw…the “sandwiches”
  • tomato, cucumber, carrot
  • 1 T raw walnuts, stevia, raw cacao


  • 16 oz salad
  • 4 oz garbanzo beans, 1/2 C yogurt
  • 4 T Raw Yogurt Dressing
  • jicama, 2 carrots
  • stevia, raw cacao

Now I’m going to go meditate and sweat it out in the sauna : ) Talk to you tomorrow!