End of Daniel Fast


Yesterday was day 40 of the Daniel Fast. This has been another amazing experience. With each year and each fast I move closer and closer to living like that on a daily basis rather than just for a time period….but there is something very special about committing that time with God. I love to dwell in His presence….but I feel like I can never get close enough. We had a chihuahua….Jack….he was such a good snuggler…..but he could never seem to get close enough….he would be right next to me…..smashed up as close as possible but he would still wiggle and push to get even closer…..that’s how I feel with God….there are moments of comfort….then I start to wiggle and push to get even closer….and that feels good.

I’m having some really wonderful experiences…..spirit led experiences. Eric and I are taking a class on “the blood covenant”….it sounds pretty mystical and magical….and it is! It’s really powerful….really exciting…..really enlightening. My spiritual life has seemed to be all over the place….and it has…..like a puzzle….there are pieces that you don’t think could possibly be a part of the same picture….and seem as if they are even on opposing ends….yet the more the picture comes together, the more clear and amazing it is how it all works together….it’s all a part of the same picture….even when it seemed as though I was going in the opposite direction….and the picture is so vast and more beautiful than I thought it could be….and it’s still just coming into light….”I ain’t seen nothin’ yet”. I have also been reminded that some good things are in my life permanently and some aren’t….or I just need to take my focus on the next right thing….the right thing for me to progress….for me to become who I was created to be….and it is all okay if I follow God….God’s direction for my life….if I don’t, things just get uncomfortable until I do…but as soon as I do they are comfortable and exciting again.

One of my amazing things….well this has been coming into view for many years….but it seems as though there is extra light and extra energy when I’m doing this fast….and the addict in me wants it 24/7….and of course, more, more, more….actually I think that the wanting of more, more, more is really the void that only God can fill and I will continue to want more until it is filled by Him. Oh dear, I do believe that I’m becoming fanatical….oh well : ) Back to my amazing thing….Reiki. I have been working with this energy since 1997 and it has been quite the experience. I can’t even begin to compute the amount of hours I have spent working with this, receiving information…from God…then applying it…then receiving more and applying that as well. Over the past 7 years I seem to have been in an intensive training with this learning how to attune places, people, times, chakra’s, clearing emotions, energy blocks….some really cool stuff. During this fast a woman was sent to me by a mutual friend, someone that I have never met….(I still haven’t met her, this was all done as distance healing….but we talked on the phone), she was sent to me to heal one thing….which we did….but by applying the lessons that God has taught me….it went deeper and wider than was apparent…it has been such a beautiful experience……and I believe a validating experience….I will just keep going forward and will know by the results….I will know by the fruit : )

I have so much more that I have learned or have been enlightened about….like faith….what it is….I thought I had it…and I did/do….but my understanding of it is so much more clear and it’s clear in a way that is powerful, active and profound. Actually so much has been coming to me over the past few months that I haven’t written about that I hope to. I’ll admit, I’ve been a little bit shy about putting things on here….I think too much about who will read it and what they will think….but that creates a block….when I’m real….cool things happen : )

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Happy 4th of July and “The Sunfood Diet Success System”


Happy 4th Everyone!  I think that this has been the most relaxing 4th of July I’ve ever had and I have with it a deep sense of peace.  Brett and Alexis are out having fun with their friends swimming and seeing people, we had a nice family BBQ yesterday, went up north for a half a day and today spent pretty much all of it, (just Eric and me), out on the deck.  The weather has been so beautiful!

I have had the book “The Sunfood Diet Success System” by David Wolfe for about 9 years or so.  I found out about it from a woman in my meditation group whom I was also working with at the time….I remember reading that I could eat as much as I wanted as long as it was raw and lose weight….I was all for that!  I tried it, I didn’t really read the book, just the part that said I could have as many avocados and mangos as I wanted….and I did….I didn’t lose weight.  The book has pretty much been on the shelf since.  As you know I have done the raw food diet since and have kept to 60-75% raw.  I actually never did go 100% raw because I was using kefir and yogurt for protein and they are pasteurized, (cooked), but I still had some amazing results in my few short months of following it.  Emotional baggage surfaced and left.  Weight just fell off, which meant that I got to eat more.  My energy was abundant.  My outlook was very positive.  I really enjoyed it…so why did I stop?  Convenience.  I didn’t want my life to be any more restrictive than it was with the no sugar no flour so I slowly started eating more and more cooked foods and more and more animal proteins….mostly eggs, yogurt and cheese…..sometimes chicken, fish or beef….but not much.

For the past few months the thought of doing it again will pop into my head with excitement….but then I think, no, it’s too much work and more restriction….and what I do is fine.   I’m healthier than I have ever been, my weight is stable, I look better than I ever have, I’m happy, etc…why fix what isn’t broken?  So I haven’t changed.  Last week I took “Esoteric Healing II”, it’s more energy work….that really helped make some things really come together for me in so many ways…but that’s not why I’m talking about it.  On the last day we did a meditation, and in this meditation where we connected with our Higher Selves and God, we also connected to a group of teachers….when you do energy work, you get spiritual help.  In my meditation and in my “group”, I only saw one face, David Wolfe’s.  I thought that was odd and really didn’t think much more about it.  The next day the image was strong in my thoughts so I asked God if He were directing me to David Wolfe and raw foods….I got the feeling to go and find this book and read it….I usually comb the internet for information like that, he has a lot of You Tube videos, a web site….a couple of them actually….my point is that reading this book was the furthest thing from my mind….I have seen it, didn’t really get it…..and it’s huge….about an inch and a half thick….but I found it and started reading it.  This time it has made perfect sense to me….a lot has changed over the past 9 years…..and this book is awesome!  It also tied into the spiritual healing and work that I do….it connected more dot’s…..and it gave me the desire to do it again….it gave real meaning to it, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.  I also really appreciated how he goes about it in the book….slow but sure rather than and over night complete change then binge because it’s too much…..it just makes sense on all levels, more now than ever.  I read the entire book this weekend….it’s actually a very good reading book.  Now my intent is to go through it again and actually do the exercises he has at the end of the chapters as well as go more raw again.  He says that if you do 95% raw, you get 95% results but if you do 100% raw, you get 1000% results….sounds like a great investment to me!  I’m not going to do it over night though, I have more to learn on how I’m going to do it….but I have a good idea, Cea HOW rules are still the top priority.

I just wanted to share that with you and invite you to do this with me….and like always, I will be letting you know how it’s going : )

Secrets of the Vine


It has been a few days since I stopped the all raw….and it only was a few days, that’s all it took.  I’m amazed, the gap has been closed, my questions answered and the road to follow is well lit….well enough for my next steps.    I woke up a few mornings ago with the book, “Secrets of the Vine” on my mind.  It’s a tiny little book by Bruce Wilkinson, the same author as “The Prayer of Jabez”.  I found it in the bookcase in the basement, sat down and looked at it for a little while.  The first chapter didn’t really seem to be clicking with me and I felt that I really should be doing something rather than reading a book, so I put it down and went to work.  I thought about it a few more times throughout the morning then after lunch decided to look at it a little better on the deck….it was a good excuse to go out and sit in the sun : )  After just a few minutes, I was in awe.  It was directly speaking to my confusion on an issue!  An issue that was keeping me in a state of bondage really….something that I felt that I had control over, or that I needed to do something about to make “right”.  The book shows how sometimes God is disciplining us, sometimes He’s pruning us and there comes a time where He just wants us to “hang” with Him….and like I said, it showed me where I was at….not only with the issue that I was not overcoming, but with where I’m at in life in general.  It gave me a sense of peace and security that I haven’t felt in a while….exactly what I had asked for upon doing this fast.

I meditate regularly, in a group, 2-3 times a week.  I watch Joyce Meyer, Creflo Dollar, the Copelands, Joel Osteen and sometimes Charles Stanley and Greggory Dickkow…..daily.  I do Reiki when I feel the need to….sometimes hours in a day, sometimes I won’t for a week.  I have felt the need to give at least an hour a day to just “hang” with God, by reading the Bible and other books through the Hindu and Buddhism religions as well as Christian….I want to know God as well as I possibly can…..I want to know who He says He is….and the only way to do that is to spend time with Him….I would actually like to spend more than an hour a day with him…..but it feels self-indulgent…..so I deny myself….even the hour.  Just over the past couple of days of doing it though, God has shown me, again, how everything else is so much easier when I put Him first, “seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things shall be added on to you”.   He talks to me, I can hear Him, follow Him and reap the rewards.  Eric is a tremendous support….he sees the benefits and expresses them…..that we all receive when I do this.  This isn’t something new over the past few days….but it has been a “renewal”.  I really need to stop getting in my own way : )  Life is Good!!!!

4 weeks off Pepsi Max!!!


….and I feel good.  I think that the phenylalanine is what I needed.  I am still having caffeine in the form of iced tea and the zip fizz….but one thing at a time….it seems that when I just focus on releasing one thing at a time gently, it tends to stay released.

As usual when I give up a crutch, a defect or fear that I’ve been trying to hide from myself shows up….not consciously, but there….and I have received yet another gift.  It makes me wonder if God is ever going to get finished cleaning me up : )  This was a gift through Al-anon.  It was a way that I responded in fear trying to keep things under control just based on a tone of voice, fear of a situation, or the possibility of a situation.  It got played out recently, but it’s so irrelevant to my life now and was negatively impacting my relationship with someone very important to me….I’m so grateful that this was shown to me and released.

There have been quite a few times now where I have had to completely surrender to God….it’s always been after tremendous struggle from trying to do things on my own first.  Now there is just a quiet discontent, a slight disconnect….a longing for that closeness and enveloping security, freedom and joy that comes from this type of surrender…..and I want that feeling.  I’ve been praying for God to show me the avenue to get that closeness and security again….there’s nothing bad happening….I just feel the drift and want to close the gap.  It feels like raw food is the way to go, and I did it today, I’m going to do it again tomorrow, I’m not sure how long, but I will know when it’s up.  Something feels ready to happen….something really good….I want all blockages removed, anything and everything that stands in between God and me.  Oprah said on her last show that she just asked God to let her be of service and not cause any harm….and wow, look what He did through her!   I would love to be of service and not cause harm….I know that when I’m in God’s will, I’m full of joy….so that is where I want to be, always.

Update on the abstaining from Pepsi Max


Yesterday was a week!  I’ve done that before and not felt good, and other times I have felt fine….so it’s not really a big deal at this point.  What is a big deal though is this….almost all of the problems that I listed last week that have been going on for quite a while are really faded or gone.

I haven’t needed a nap all week….I took one on Sunday just because it was gloomy and I wanted to lay down and watch some tv….but other than that, I’ve been fine and more productive than I have been in a while.  My energy is balanced throughout the day….I am still drinking caffeine though in the form of iced tea, (Lipton mixed with Green lemon and ginseng), green tea and zip fizz….so I’m not perfect….one thing at a time : )  I will say though that I’m not having as much as I did at the beginning of last week and I only have one green tea a day….I really think that it was the Phenylalanine that my body wanted….and I am taking that.

My heart burn is gone, I’m a lot less sore, my mood is good, I’m not getting really hungry until it’s time to eat….but I want to eat when it’s time.  The muscle and joint pain are just about gone.  This is amazing….my knee and hip, like I said, have been out for several weeks and it was really affecting my workouts, yoga and walking.  Saturday when I was doing a yoga/Pilates thing I do, I couldn’t get into a yoga position, then when I was doing Pilates it really got stuck and hurt.  I asked God to fix it…I pulled my knee a little then rocked my leg in my hip socket a couple of times and heard a pop and it hasn’t hurt since….I can bend completely at the knee again….there’s a little “remembrance” of the pain….but it’s so slight, I expect it to be gone in no time….this has only been a week : )  I get shown time and time again what a poison it is in my body, yet, I have gone back over and over.  Taking the phenylalanine has also helped because I’m afraid of taking too much….so that has kept me away from all of the diet soda pop.  I still have a few of the complaints that I had last week….but I am very hopeful from this week.

I got my blood re-tested for the lipoprotein a and it went down….only 5 points since January it was at 49 now it’s at 44, ideally it should be under 30….and it will be….but for now I’ll be happy that it’s moving in the right direction….I know that I wrote in here before that I believed that the aspartame could be contributing to it and I will get the blood test again in November….so I can put that theory to the test.

Happy Spring!!!


Wow, I can’t believe that it has been over a month since I’ve blogged!  Since I’ve last talked to you, Brett was home for his spring break…Alexis’s is after next week….and Eric and I celebrated our 23rd wedding anniversary.  We went to Orlando for a week by ourselves, it was actually our first honeymoon.  When we first got married, Eric had just started a new job and we didn’t take the time off….then life just went full force ahead from there : )  I really felt a lot of gratitude on our trip, and it’s so nice to know that we can still have a great time with just the two of us.  We’ve grown together so much and have raised some amazing kids if I do say so myself : )   We had 3 vacations in one, shopping and just doing life in the sun, 2 days of theme parks and 2 days of Joyce Meyer….she’s awesome.  The last conference that I went to of hers, Dave, her husband talked about our country, our declaration and how we are quite far from our rights as citizens…..and how we really need to make ourselves aware of what those rights are and take back our country while we still can….it was very motivational and inspirational.  As our kids need us less and less now….time wise anyway…..we can start putting more time into community issues.  Eric went to a township meeting and I’m planning on going to a state meeting tomorrow on school funding….of course, they want to make more cuts…..that’s the last resource we want to cut….the education of our children….they are our future!  That’s where we’re starting anyway….then we will hopefully be led to help make a difference where we can.  I don’t want to make this the main focus of my life….but it definitely deserves some of my time and effort.

Another thing that I found out about is a possible genetic condition in my family called “lipoprotein a”.  It’s in the families with cholesterol, triglycerides, homocysteine….the fats.  For me, all of those levels are low and well within the normal ranges…I can thank this lifestyle for that : )  The lipoprotein a though is not routinely checked unless requested.  With my aunt, they found that she had high levels of this after she had a quadruple bypass….I believe that she had high cholesterol, but I’m not sure….but it sounds like this may have been what caused her heart problem….and like I said, it’s genetic….so everyone is having it checked.  Mine was 49 and it shouldn’t go over 30.  I had a stress test that didn’t come back completely clear and the doctor suggested a “nuclear medicine stress test”.  There isn’t medication that they are aware of to lower this.  I looked on the internet and found Linus Pauling and his protocol for lipoprotein a.  I told my doctor that I would like to try his protocol and get retested, she agreed.  I did make an appointment for the nuclear test, but when I received the paper work, I decided that I would like to wait and see if this changed things first….it has risks and is quite invasive….I’ll do it if I have to….but I’m going to check with her about waiting until the new blood tests come back first.  The book is called, “Practicing Medicine Without a License?”, if you have high cholesterol or the lp(a), it may be of interest to you.  I also need to face the Pepsi Max issue for real now.  I know that fat in your body will encase dangerous acidic materials in the body to protect it.  This major kick of caffeine quickly passes the blood/brain barrier to give me that instant zippitty do da feeling I love so very much….logically, it would seem that that could be a contributing factor too….so as much as I have been avoiding releasing this magical substance….the time has come.  When I first found out about this, I went off of all caffeine cold turkey….that lasted less than 24 hours.  I have been drinking about 2 liters of it a day and a zip fizz after breakfast….I know….crazy.  Lately too, I have noticed that it has been effecting my moods….anxiety, tension, agitation….and not as much thrill and joy.  I’m programmed to believe that it’s all or nothing with everything….and that is totally appropriate for some things….but not everything…..it may be appropriate for caffeine….but cold turkey isn’t effective for me.  Today, I have allowed myself 1-24 oz bottle of Pepsi Max and 1 Zip fizz….I’ve had 1/2 of both and am saving the other 1/2’s for after lunch….and I’m fine…..but we are only on day 1 : )  I am also allowing myself all of the tea that I want, (I just keep adding water to the same tea bag), and water of course….I do notice that when ever I go off of the caffeine…or lower it….I’m so thirsty….caffeine is really dehydrating.

Talk to you soon!  Have a great day!

 

Major Excitement on the Daniel Fast!!!


I just got off the phone with a woman that was in our group and asked her how she had done.  Our group fast ended January 24 and I hadn’t seen or talked to her since.  She was having trouble with her thyroid at the start of the fast and was one of the things that she was asking God for help with….I do have her permission to tell you this : )  She had her blood work drawn and the doctor asked her what she was doing…her numbers were different…..and she had to lower her medication.  The doctor was excited when my friend told her what she was doing…she had read about what animal products could do to our hormones….and here was some proof!  She asked her to stay on this “diet” for 6 weeks and get her blood tested again…and my friend is doing that.  She has also lost 25lbs since January 1!  She did a 10 day Daniel fast before Thanksgiving to try it out and lost 10 lbs but gained it all back over the holidays.  She re-lost the 10lbs she gained during the 3 day juice fast….this isn’t someone I would have called fat at all….it’s surprising that she has lost so much!

If you are doing the 40 days with me….technically, we’re done as of Wednesday….but between this story and what I’m reading in “The China Study”….I think I want to keep doing it.  I may not be so rigid if I want to go out to eat and have to have some salmon or ranch dressing or something small once and a while….but this has me totally geeked and excited, I’m going to stick with it : )