I’ve had the same juices all 3 days so I didn’t re-post it. So far, so good. Yesterday was the most detoxifying….the second day usually is, I took another shower before I went to bed and felt so much better. I know I seem to say this every time I go on a cleanse…..but….that corn that shows up on my foot all the time was there again, and painful, it’s been painful for at least a month and I’ve been aware of it for longer….it’s gone! I feel like continuing the juicing for a while longer, the next couple of days are pretty busy and it feels easier to do that than to figure out what to eat, I feel like more will be released if I continue too….and I really don’t feel like eating yet….which is very strange for me so I want to honor what my body is telling me. Alexis has been doing this with me, I’m so impressed! She is going on a medical mission trip to Nicaragua with our church in February and also needs to pick her college, so praying and fasting are a really good thing for her right now. I’m also praying for her, I feel that God is leading her to the trip, and leading me to let her go….this is her 3rd one….but the first out of the country. There are 3 adults that we know well going and the leader has taken this trip over 20 times, she’s my baby and sometimes I can’t believe that I’m letting her do this, but then a calm will come over me…I’m really hoping that it’s God saying that everything will be okay….of course that is on the top of my prayer list too….along with both kids getting into the right colleges for them and other things. Eric started today. I have a group starting Friday and Monday….this is a great start to the year I must say : )
Here’s what I’m having today:
Breakfast: Green Magma Plus. 1 scoop Sun Warrior Raw Protein Powder, (vanilla), 8 oz blueberries and banana, 1 T maca powder, 1 T stevia, 1 T c hia seeds blended in about 16 oz water….oh, and a scoop of Irish Moss. (it’s a sea weed that you work with to make a gel….I tried it yesterday and it seemed to give me extra energy….I’ll see if I feel the same today).
Lunch: 2 C carrot and celery juice, 1/2 sweet potato juiced, 1 apple juiced, 1 lemon juiced….peel and all. 1 scoop Sun Warrior Raw Protein Powder, chocolate, 1 T chia seeds, 1 T Irish Moss.
Dinner: 3 C carrot, celery, beet and tomato juice, (I will heat it just to warm on the stove and add garlic, 1 t miso paste, 1/2 t raw honey, 1/2 T raw apple cider vinegar, sea salt, cayenne pepper), 1 scoop chocolate protein powder, 1 T chia, 1 T Irish Moss.
I’m starting with a 3 day juice fast, it re-boots the system and makes it easier to transition. There are buckwheat groats, sunflower seeds and a spicy seed mixture sprouting in my laundry room to be ready for Wednesday. There is also a jar of quinoa “rejuvelac” fermenting on my counter. See you tomorrow, have a great day!
I LOVE New Years. Not for the parties or the dresses….and certainly not for the drinks or the food…..I love New Years resolutions. This year will mark 19 years of no alcohol, 12 years of no cigarettes, with a few exceptions, about 8 without the gum, 7 years of no sugar/no flour, coffee is out of the picture….and so much more. They didn’t all go right at New Years…alcohol did and the other things on many occasions, but may not have stuck until later in the year…but so what? I love to improve, I love to be free of addictions, I love to make lists of goals and check them at the end of the year and now it’s that time again : ) We have a group doing a 21 day cleanse that will begin on the 9th. I’m going to start on the 1sth though since I’m the leader and want to be at my best for the other people….a good leader : ) This year I’m going to crank it up a notch. I’m going totally raw for the 21 days, maybe for more, but definitely the 3 weeks, and I’m jazzed. What I really enjoy about the New Years cleanse, or Daniel fast is the clarity I get, the surrender and closeness to God. I’m not sure why what I eat or don’t eat has such an impact on my emotions, mental state and spiritual state, but it really does. Earlier today I realized that I don’t think that I could have stuck to the no sugar/no flour eating without a guide….that way of living was foreign to me and would have been temporary….just like raw food has been, I get to my goal, then go back to the way I was eating before, so does that mean that I need to stay raw? I don’t know, but I’m going to ask for clarity during this cleanse. I have gotten to a higher level of trust with God and if I feel that He is guiding me to do it, then He will show me the way and I will. It seems so radical….but so did living without sugar and flour. I always feel so good when I do the cleanses, a heightened awareness, more energy, a calmness and security that is deeper than normal….so it does make me wonder. For now, I’m committing to 3 weeks…and looking forward to it….of course I will let you know how it’s going : ) What are your goals for the year? Are you as excited as I am? Oh, I almost forgot! Last year, I was so hooked on Pepsi Max that I didn’t let go of it for the cleanse/fast, but I put it on my list asking God to remove it from me…..Thank you God, I haven’t had any in several months : )
HI! I have gone to blog so many times in the past couple of months, but just didn’t. Life is very interesting right now, very enlightening. I do believe too that I have finally had my last run about with Pepsi Max. The root of the addiction was shown to me and I was able to release it and let it go. Addiction after all is the consumption of something that we know is harmful to us yet makes us feel better when we succumb to it. It has been a little over a month since my revelation. This time I quit because there is a raw food retreat center that I would like to go and volunteer at to learn more about the lifestyle, needless to say, they don’t drink Pepsi Max and I wouldn’t be of much use if I was detoxing from it while they were expecting me to help, so I thought I would give it another try…short term of course. The next dayI was at a meeting with people that I always feel good and comfortable with….without the Pepsi Max….a huge feeling of fear and insecurity overwhelmed me and I couldn’t wait to get home….where of course I had some Pepsi Max waiting for me….I knew drinking it would make the feeling go away and replace it with joy, energy and the ability to concur the rest of the day. I had a glimpse in the past that I was running from a fear and hiding in the super charged security of the sweet, black nectar, but it still didn’t seem that easy….and even for me, it felt weird, weak…..after all I am Super Sandee…..totally confident and capable : ) Who wants to feel weak and insecure? This time, I stopped and asked God what was wrong, what was I so afraid of? Then I waited…in fear and really wanting to get rid of this feeling at any cost…..including succumbing to this controlling addiction yet again for the temporary and immediate relief that I knew it would give me. I also asked God to remove the desire if He wanted me to go without it. I got a clear message/awakening/enlightenment….whatever you want to call it. I was terrified that the people that I cared for would “find out” that they didn’t like me anymore and would abandon me. They would “find out” that I was really worthless and insignificant. There was an event that had happened during that time…not a really big one….just a remnant of other pains in the past that had come up again and my conscious mind quickly sloughed it off, filed it away and proceeded. It was how I had learned to process pain in the past, it was the more mature, dignified way to handle it. Similar things had happened and I had a deep fear that it would happen again….but as long as I stayed caught up in the unawareness and super speed of the Pepsi Max….it wouldn’t catch up to me or my consciousness. I asked God to heal that in me….and He did. I haven’t had the desire for it since. I also have a security and feeling of worthiness that is real that I didn’t have before. I find it so interesting that something like that can rule us to the extent it does….our minds, bodies and emotions do what ever they can to protect us….and for that I have love and appreciation….now I have more patience and understanding to ask what really is the matter….and the security of knowing that as long as I have God, it will be just fine. Every addiction I have had has been a “tool”….it may not have been the best tool, but I knew how to use it. It makes more appreciate all the more when I get the correct tool for the job : )
I have so much more to share with you from the past couple of months, and I will, but not today. Life is so good, I’m in such a good space.
Lots of Love and Light to you!
Happy 4th Everyone! I think that this has been the most relaxing 4th of July I’ve ever had and I have with it a deep sense of peace. Brett and Alexis are out having fun with their friends swimming and seeing people, we had a nice family BBQ yesterday, went up north for a half a day and today spent pretty much all of it, (just Eric and me), out on the deck. The weather has been so beautiful!
I have had the book “The Sunfood Diet Success System” by David Wolfe for about 9 years or so. I found out about it from a woman in my meditation group whom I was also working with at the time….I remember reading that I could eat as much as I wanted as long as it was raw and lose weight….I was all for that! I tried it, I didn’t really read the book, just the part that said I could have as many avocados and mangos as I wanted….and I did….I didn’t lose weight. The book has pretty much been on the shelf since. As you know I have done the raw food diet since and have kept to 60-75% raw. I actually never did go 100% raw because I was using kefir and yogurt for protein and they are pasteurized, (cooked), but I still had some amazing results in my few short months of following it. Emotional baggage surfaced and left. Weight just fell off, which meant that I got to eat more. My energy was abundant. My outlook was very positive. I really enjoyed it…so why did I stop? Convenience. I didn’t want my life to be any more restrictive than it was with the no sugar no flour so I slowly started eating more and more cooked foods and more and more animal proteins….mostly eggs, yogurt and cheese…..sometimes chicken, fish or beef….but not much.
For the past few months the thought of doing it again will pop into my head with excitement….but then I think, no, it’s too much work and more restriction….and what I do is fine. I’m healthier than I have ever been, my weight is stable, I look better than I ever have, I’m happy, etc…why fix what isn’t broken? So I haven’t changed. Last week I took “Esoteric Healing II”, it’s more energy work….that really helped make some things really come together for me in so many ways…but that’s not why I’m talking about it. On the last day we did a meditation, and in this meditation where we connected with our Higher Selves and God, we also connected to a group of teachers….when you do energy work, you get spiritual help. In my meditation and in my “group”, I only saw one face, David Wolfe’s. I thought that was odd and really didn’t think much more about it. The next day the image was strong in my thoughts so I asked God if He were directing me to David Wolfe and raw foods….I got the feeling to go and find this book and read it….I usually comb the internet for information like that, he has a lot of You Tube videos, a web site….a couple of them actually….my point is that reading this book was the furthest thing from my mind….I have seen it, didn’t really get it…..and it’s huge….about an inch and a half thick….but I found it and started reading it. This time it has made perfect sense to me….a lot has changed over the past 9 years…..and this book is awesome! It also tied into the spiritual healing and work that I do….it connected more dot’s…..and it gave me the desire to do it again….it gave real meaning to it, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I also really appreciated how he goes about it in the book….slow but sure rather than and over night complete change then binge because it’s too much…..it just makes sense on all levels, more now than ever. I read the entire book this weekend….it’s actually a very good reading book. Now my intent is to go through it again and actually do the exercises he has at the end of the chapters as well as go more raw again. He says that if you do 95% raw, you get 95% results but if you do 100% raw, you get 1000% results….sounds like a great investment to me! I’m not going to do it over night though, I have more to learn on how I’m going to do it….but I have a good idea, Cea HOW rules are still the top priority.
I just wanted to share that with you and invite you to do this with me….and like always, I will be letting you know how it’s going : )
It has been a few days since I stopped the all raw….and it only was a few days, that’s all it took. I’m amazed, the gap has been closed, my questions answered and the road to follow is well lit….well enough for my next steps. I woke up a few mornings ago with the book, “Secrets of the Vine” on my mind. It’s a tiny little book by Bruce Wilkinson, the same author as “The Prayer of Jabez”. I found it in the bookcase in the basement, sat down and looked at it for a little while. The first chapter didn’t really seem to be clicking with me and I felt that I really should be doing something rather than reading a book, so I put it down and went to work. I thought about it a few more times throughout the morning then after lunch decided to look at it a little better on the deck….it was a good excuse to go out and sit in the sun : ) After just a few minutes, I was in awe. It was directly speaking to my confusion on an issue! An issue that was keeping me in a state of bondage really….something that I felt that I had control over, or that I needed to do something about to make “right”. The book shows how sometimes God is disciplining us, sometimes He’s pruning us and there comes a time where He just wants us to “hang” with Him….and like I said, it showed me where I was at….not only with the issue that I was not overcoming, but with where I’m at in life in general. It gave me a sense of peace and security that I haven’t felt in a while….exactly what I had asked for upon doing this fast.
I meditate regularly, in a group, 2-3 times a week. I watch Joyce Meyer, Creflo Dollar, the Copelands, Joel Osteen and sometimes Charles Stanley and Greggory Dickkow…..daily. I do Reiki when I feel the need to….sometimes hours in a day, sometimes I won’t for a week. I have felt the need to give at least an hour a day to just “hang” with God, by reading the Bible and other books through the Hindu and Buddhism religions as well as Christian….I want to know God as well as I possibly can…..I want to know who He says He is….and the only way to do that is to spend time with Him….I would actually like to spend more than an hour a day with him…..but it feels self-indulgent…..so I deny myself….even the hour. Just over the past couple of days of doing it though, God has shown me, again, how everything else is so much easier when I put Him first, “seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things shall be added on to you”. He talks to me, I can hear Him, follow Him and reap the rewards. Eric is a tremendous support….he sees the benefits and expresses them…..that we all receive when I do this. This isn’t something new over the past few days….but it has been a “renewal”. I really need to stop getting in my own way : ) Life is Good!!!!
….and I feel good. I think that the phenylalanine is what I needed. I am still having caffeine in the form of iced tea and the zip fizz….but one thing at a time….it seems that when I just focus on releasing one thing at a time gently, it tends to stay released.
As usual when I give up a crutch, a defect or fear that I’ve been trying to hide from myself shows up….not consciously, but there….and I have received yet another gift. It makes me wonder if God is ever going to get finished cleaning me up : ) This was a gift through Al-anon. It was a way that I responded in fear trying to keep things under control just based on a tone of voice, fear of a situation, or the possibility of a situation. It got played out recently, but it’s so irrelevant to my life now and was negatively impacting my relationship with someone very important to me….I’m so grateful that this was shown to me and released.
There have been quite a few times now where I have had to completely surrender to God….it’s always been after tremendous struggle from trying to do things on my own first. Now there is just a quiet discontent, a slight disconnect….a longing for that closeness and enveloping security, freedom and joy that comes from this type of surrender…..and I want that feeling. I’ve been praying for God to show me the avenue to get that closeness and security again….there’s nothing bad happening….I just feel the drift and want to close the gap. It feels like raw food is the way to go, and I did it today, I’m going to do it again tomorrow, I’m not sure how long, but I will know when it’s up. Something feels ready to happen….something really good….I want all blockages removed, anything and everything that stands in between God and me. Oprah said on her last show that she just asked God to let her be of service and not cause any harm….and wow, look what He did through her! I would love to be of service and not cause harm….I know that when I’m in God’s will, I’m full of joy….so that is where I want to be, always.