My weight is not my concern


My sponsor so kindly reminded me that I didn’t get to where I am on my own and that I won’t get fat again…If I gain weight…we take away a food…if I lose…we add…it’s as simple as that. My body will fluctuate from time to time…I just need to follow the program. Exercise still has it’s place though…just not to be used as a control tool…it’s for youth, vitality, strength, flexibility, release of emotions, etc. I really have a great sponsor! Having said that…I am calm and normal again this morning…and I would still like to tighten up my stomach…so I did take the measurements…waist 30….ab area 34…and I did the 20 minute Winsor Pilates…I wrote down the exercises a long time ago so I can do them in front of the t.v….so it really took about 10 or 15 minutes…I don’t need the explanation every time. My plan is to do it Wed, Sat and Sun…I do The Firm on Mon and Thurs and Yoga on Tues and Fri….I feel great when I’m doing this…but if I miss one…I just carry on to the next thing….it’s ok….it’s a lifestyle…not a marathon. It’s a beautiful sunny day here…we’re going to go to church…then I want to clean my car….we’ll see if I still do later : )

Exercise


I’m feeling a little nervous…ok…a lot….when you’re a compulsive obsessive person…the middle road on this kind of thing is easy to get off of. Funny, I just said yesterday that I can wear white…I did tonight…with my new jeans…Alexis said it made me look big…and the jeans felt a little snug….my weight was fine on Thursday…but I’m still freaking out a bit. When I started “spring cleaning” a few weeks ago…I slowed down on my workouts…I figured that I was getting enough exercise with the cleaning…well now my stomach seems bigger….I wasn’t even thinking about any of this a few hours ago…now I’m obsessing…any way…I stopped doing Pilates quite a few months ago…and I’m going to start again in the morning…I’ll let you know how it goes….I’m going to measure my waist and abs in the morning too…then in a couple of weeks.

Eric just walked by and told me again that I looked really good…but I’m still going to do the Pilates and measurements. I ate at an all you can eat buffet…I like them because I can get enough vegetables with out paying a lot more….but now I’m looking back at it wondering if I ate too many beans…I think I did…I think I need to just go to bed and end this day and be normal again tomorrow. Good night Gracie : )

Shopping Day


Eric likes to go shopping with me now…and I love it. We went to Horrocks to load up on the veggies…where else can you buy 4 bags of groceries for $30…it doesn’t have to be expensive to be healthy….and 4 other store with me…he’s such a good hubby!

I got one of my old workouts….Kathy Smith’s Fat Burning Work Out…from the library today for my daughter…I want to see if she likes it before I buy it again…it’s from the 80’s…and they look the part : ) I did it a little while ago and forgot how good it makes you feel…I just feel like I did something really good for my body…I hope she likes it…I may buy it again for myself anyway….I do Yoga and The Firm…but this one has a such a nice feeling…if you’re new to working out I don’t think there’s a better one to do, she shows and tells you what and why you’re doing the whole time…you feel stretched and strengthened.

I took a day off spring cleaning and watched DVR episodes of “You are What You Eat” instead. Another British show…I think that I need to visit London….this one is a Dietitian who gets in peoples faces about what they’re eating…but they always get on the right track. They all seem like Simon Cowell on American Idol….the stars of this show and the clean house….they tell it like they see it with no bones about it…Kim, Aggie and Gillian end up being nice and caring though…some times Simon is too : )

I started some garbanzo beans soaking so I can sprout them over the next couple of days…they are my favorite spouts of all time…and so healthy. I had a 75% raw dinner too after getting the beans ready…it inspired me….I had a zucchini in the saladacco….it makes me feel like I’m eating an enormous plate of pasta…with 1/2 C spaghetti sauce and an ounce of Parmesan cheese…really satisfying and healthy…raw zucchini is great for your hair and bones and all of the vitamins and enzymes are in tact….I also had a huge dark green organic salad with spinach, grape tomatoes, onions, sugar snap peas…good healthy me today : ) For Easter tomorrow were going to a family dinner…with lots and lots of goodies and food…stuff I can’t eat…and I’m contributing to the food I can’t eat…when stuff like that comes up I make something on the indulgence end for myself…along with my vegetables…that I’ll make party style and corn chips…also party style…I’m mixing stevia into 1/2 C ricotta cheese and drizzling 2 T of Walden Farms blueberry syrup on it….it tastes like cheese cake with blueberries on it….and does the trick for me! Ok, now I’m off to make the Chicken salad and color Easter Eggs.

It’s the first day of spring!


I love spring, I think it’s my favorite season. Everything bursts into life. I’ve been cleaning my house like a mad woman for the past week and loving it. I can’t wait for the abundance of fresh fruits and vegetables…but for now…I’ll just be happy seeing the sun again. I laid in bed last night dreaming of cabbage of all things…so that’s for lunch…I need to look it up to see what’s in it.