I would like to lead a Daniel Fast in January. My goal is to have a guide written by the end of October. I started writing it and realized that it would be a good idea to go on one while I was writing for the most fresh experience and insight I could have. I’ve also been up in the air with some things that I needed clarity on and this is a great way to stop, let go and get insight. The way I like to start it is with 3 days of juice and soy milk or hemp for protein…I’ve also discovered “nutritional yeast”…I’ll tell you about that later. I received one answer to my questions after the first day…and it was a big one. The second day I committed a slice of Ezekiel bread and 1/8 avocado with my juice for lunch and dinner, the 3rd, I had a vegan lunch…committed, and dinner again included the Ezekiel bread and avocado with the juice. On our way home from lunch, I was freaking out a bit in my head about the re-fried beans that I had, they served them with melted cheese on them, I scraped it off but was worrying that I may have eaten some and that I didn’t do total juice/liquid for the entire 3 days and that God was going to withhold or revoke his blessing on me….not a good feeling. The message came to me very calmly and lovingly that this fast was meant to bring me closer to him and that my being so legalistic about these details was doing the opposite….I was still loved.
I laid down to take a nap when we got home, that didn’t go so well….I was just thinking of how to get through the day and start over, I was sick of being such a goody goody and not having any fun…I wanted a state of mind change….so, what did I do? I went out to the garage and got a Pepsi Max and drank it down in about 5 minutes….then I got another one…..and I enjoyed the rest of my day, it did give me my state change and energy…..my rebellious side came out to play.
This morning waking up I was thinking about this and how could I lead a group if I couldn’t finish it perfectly myself. I thought about the Daniel fasts that I have done in the past, I don’t think that I ever completed one without caffeine, the first one I did, I didn’t even make it to the end….that was the one where I learned about my eating disorder by accidentally eating sugar. Every single one that I have done has given me an awakening, an inner knowledge and strength along the release of “baggage”….physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. For the past 18 years I have been learning to strive for “progress not perfection” and to live rigorously honest….and it works….it works in such an amazing way. I was also reminded that it’s God doing for me what I haven’t been able to do for myself….I’ve been able to abstain from alcohol, cigarettes, gum, sugar and flour because of his guidance, the meetings with other people with the same goals in mind and by taking it one step at a time. I thought about Joyce Meyer who has helped millions if not billions of people even while still continuing to learn and grow….she’ll talk about how she’ll mess up on the very thing that she’s talking about…and I get so much out of listening to her….way more than if she was someone perfect telling the rest of us how to do it….what she says is valuable because she’s learning and growing right in front of us. One of her sayings that I really like is, “I’m not where I need to be yet, but, thank God, I’m not where I used to be”. I can really identify with that statement….and keep moving forward….in my imperfect, learning, growing and still loved way….the biggest lesson is to keep moving forward and not stop because I made a mistake….that’s why I need God : )