What a wonderful day it was…and I was already blissed out from last nights meditation. I am a major chicken when it comes to driving in the Detroit area…and Joyce was at the Palace of Auburn Hills….a friend asked me a couple of weeks ago if I was going because she knew that I liked her so much and that she would like to go if I did. I told Eric when I got home and he said “Of course you should go!” I’ve been watching her almost every weekday for over 4 years…and I can’t even tell you how much that I’ve gotten from her…she is awesome! I really didn’t think that it would be that much different seeing her in person…in fact I thought watching her on t.v. was probably better because we didn’t have to do all the singing and I could see better on t.v….and have my coffee, etc. Well, it was such a great experience. I actually loved the singing…the band was “Delirious” very good…I was singing and dancing right along with them. It was exciting to see her in person…and Dave, (her husband)…he gave a very inspirational talk about being involved in our country and knowing the Constitution, living up to our responsibilities as an American…and to keep God in our country. I was full of admiration, respect and love for Joyce. She was obviously sick but never missed a beat, she didn’t even mention it, she gave it her all, smiled big and got her (God’s) message across. What really moved me though was the amount of love and warmth that radiated from her…you don’t get from the t.v. What a dynamic person, I feel so blessed that I was able to be there…I’m still buzzing….and I want more….the more I learn about God and experience His presence…the more I want….I just never want to be out of that feeling. The God that I learned about as a child was always waiting for me to mess up…which was all the time…so He could zap me….reading the Bible terrified me…but I now read it with joy and expectation because of people like Joyce, Creflo Dollar, Joel Osteen and the Copeland’s….and people like them….and what used to terrify me now brings me so much comfort, excitement, peace and exhilaration. The light is on.
What an exciting adventure this is! I have had a few cooked foods in the past 2 months…but only 3…and I don’t want to make this so hard that it dampens my life…only enhances it. What I’ve noticed is that I can eat a lot more food and my weight is down. Last time I weighed myself (last Thursday), I was 125, I have been staying around 130 and when I have reached 127 Eric would say I looked drawn…sickly….and now I look very healthy. I am also naturally very white and I’ve been out in the sun quite a bit lately and have tanned pretty nicely….I burned very slightly at first but it was over quick, and I’m still tan. I also had a (corn?), something hard and painful on the bottom of my foot for well over a year, I would dig at it, put lotion on it, ignore it, push it, etc and it wouldn’t go away…the other day, I scratched it a little and it fell off. I will admit though though that I had a colonic too…not really the kind of information I want to share but since this is for the benefit of health I will and that may also have had something to do with loosening up what was stuck. I read through Natalia Rose’s 3 Books on Raw food living and she is really for it….and reading it reminded me that I hadn’t done that in a very long time. And last but not least are the emotional releases, mental clarity, feeling of peace and security…things are coming up and lifting. I have no intension of stopping this now. I’m not doing it perfectly either, I’m still drinking coffee and Diet Pepsi Max and I eat yogurt and kefir for the protein…they are processed but have the live pro-biotics in them…I also have a scoop of Eniva’s whey protein powder in the morning in my smoothie, there is something in the whey protein that stimulates the body to make more glutathione which will rev up your anti oxidants…keeping you younger and healthier….it’s one of the new biggies in supplements…and my goal is to be as healthy and as clean as I can be…while still enjoying life…(coffee and diet Pepsi Max : ) Who knows what will happen later….I never thought that I’d be doing what I’ve been doing over the past few years…and the wonderful gifts that would come out of it…I never even thought that someone would eat all raw food…or how much what we eat effects every other area in our lives….I’m so obsessed with learning about it and living it…it’s been 2 really neat months of the as close as I can get right now lifestyle…and for now this is close enough…I’m going to continue in the same way that I have been until I’m led to do it another way.
I was led to do this raw food diet about a year ago and did incorporate many things into my diet….I use that as “food”…not “diet”…I’m done with those…anyway, now it’s been just over 6 weeks. I keep getting more and more amazed at what this is doing for me. It’s like I’m purging and rebuilding. This is a hard time of year for me, I had always spent the 4th of July with my family but that changed after my dad died, it’s still celebrated, but just different. This morning was not good so I decided to do a meditation…a guided one….I did pray first asking for healing with this….I went completely out…when I “woke up” I was feeling better…more peaceful…and, I hope this isn’t too graphic but it shows what the body does when it’s hanging on, I pooped like 6 times! What a release…literally…ever sense, I’ve had a feeling of peace and relief. I also realized that I was feeling the reactions from someone else as a reaction from my dad, (rejection and abandonment), but I also have the very safe and secure feeling of his love for me and that no one can take that away…not even me…he loved/loves me no matter what, I am worthy and valuable….and that is such a wonderful gift….I feel like I can breathe all the way to my toes.
This is for Ursula. I have tried to respond to your email both times and I don’t think that it went through…I know it didn’t the first time. I’m not sure what to do, I hope you read this…I don’t want you to think that I’m ignoring you…not at all!