We have Brett’s graduation party behind us now. It was very nice, the weather held up well and so many people came to celebrate with us, it was very touching.
I’m still raw and loving it. My weight went down a bit for a couple of weeks to 125.5…my goal is 130 so that’s too low, but I got to add a bunch of food…tomorrow is my weigh date so we’ll see how it goes. I am really amazed with how this way of eating has effected me. Of course it has pulled out physical toxins, my skin looks better…younger, but it seems to be pulling out mental and emotional toxins as well. Things are surfacing…old stuff…but the difference is that it’s coming with new understanding and release. I feel a peace and relief that I have never felt before, a safety and security.
I was thinking the other day how much influence our families can have over how we feel about ourselves just by their reaction or non reaction to us. It shapes how we value ourselves…and others for that matter, what we think, believe and see as reality. But what if they reject us? What if they abandon us? What if they didn’t know what they were doing, operating out of pain and defensiveness? Does that make us any less valuable? Does it change who we are? I think it can definitely make a big impact on us, but it doesn’t need to be the deciding factor. In reality it does not change who we are…at the core….and it can really show you what you are made of. If you feel that you always have something/someone to fall back on it can give you the courage to try just about anything and terrified if you don’t have that security. What if you could create that feeling of love, value and security for yourself? What if it was always there? How would you live your life? What would you be doing? The truth is that you are loved beyond measure….maybe not by the people around you now…but the right people will find you when you start living your truth and you will find them…you are so valuable and you do have someone who will guide you, teach you, catch you if you fall and gently pick you back up…I call Him God…He’s unbreakable and can handle anything, nothing you do is a surprise to Him or would cause Him to turn his back on you…nothing. He has total love and compassion for you, you are safe.
Today was 4 weeks raw…with 2 cooked ( but not all cooked) meals in there at different points. I’m feeling better all the time…my skin looks and feels really good. I got a massage today…lucky me, my insurance covers it with the visit to the Chiropractor…yes, lucky me. The girl that does the massages really gets all the toxins out…it feels so healthy. I’ve had dreams too of “old” stuff leaving the house…I know that means releasing old baggage. That’s still a work in progress. Today we went to get Brett from his 3 day orientation…I took my raw lunch in the car and ate it on the way down…when we took him there the plan was to go out to lunch, (Alexis and me) while we were out shopping, last minute I decided to pack my raw lunch and was so glad that I did…it really is enjoyable to eat this way, I feel special and cared for…I know it sounds corny…but it’s true. I just posted these recipes…Raw Chili and Raw Mexican salad with dressing…they were really good…I haven’t given you raw lo mein with Asian dressing yet though…that will be next week.
It’s interesting, the chili sounded good, a recipe popped into my head and it was great. I saw a beautiful Asian dish as a deli…health food deli…and my mind worked out a way to have it raw…and it was soooooooooo gooooooood…..I’ve had it for dinner 2 nights in a row now….I will give that one to you soon and you really have to try it…if you just “like” Asian food I think that you’re going to love this. It’s almost like I have this little genie on my shoulder granting me raw food wishes as we go….thank you little genie : )
Today Alexis turned 14…Wow….I’m so glad we have her : ) We went to the Mayor Walk this morning with a bunch of family members…this is the 3rd time…a new tradition…and we love it. We also had an open house to go to for one of Brett’s friends that we’ve known since he was a little guy…now he towers over almost everyone…there are quite a few this year with Brett graduating….he’s going to ton’s. I also took Alexis shopping after the open house and bought her some clothes and new rugs for her bathroom…this isn’t her gift…she wants to save up for a digital camera…and we went out to eat at Texas Roadhouse…yum. I didn’t stay raw…but I stayed about 50%. They made me a huge salad with lettuce, cauliflower, broccoli and carrots…it was awesome! I did have the tiny steak…6 oz before cooked…I feel great…I was worried because last week when we went out I could feel the salt puff my face up and had a headache…I also had broccoli, cauliflower and carrots steamed and onions and mushrooms on top of the steak…and I took my digestive enzymes. I don’t want to be nuts about keeping so raw, the food plan I’m on is already enough to stick to…and as I’ve said before…that comes first…but I do really like the way I feel with all this raw food.
Happy Birthday Alexis! I love you so much and I’m so glad you were born! You have made my world a much brighter place and I can’t say enough how important you are to me.
Wow, he did it…and he did it so well….now he’s on to becoming who he’s going to be…well not today : ) It was so wonderful seeing so many kids and their families that we’ve know through these years…it’s a group effort…we’re all a part of each others lives….we are a community….I love it!
We went out to dinner with Brett’s two best friends and their families…they’re like our family too. I had been raw for over 2 weeks until that meal…I planned it…but I’ve got to tell you….I really prefer to eat raw. The next time I do it I’ll stick to the salad bar more and maybe bring my own protein. I felt bloated and very thirsty from all the salt…I added a lot more to the food because the taste was cooked out. I also had a headache…I still do a little. I was so worried that I’d eat the cooked food…and meat…I had some chicken…and want to ditch this whole raw thing all together…but it was the opposite….I’m happy to get back to the raw food this morning…it’s so naturally good and full of life…it’s clean. I like what my sponsor says about the food we eat…she means cooked too….”this is what God created for us…it’s beautiful, colorful and tastes so good.” Yes it does!