My weight is not my concern

My sponsor so kindly reminded me that I didn’t get to where I am on my own and that I won’t get fat again…If I gain weight…we take away a food…if I lose…we add…it’s as simple as that. My body will fluctuate from time to time…I just need to follow the program. Exercise still has it’s place though…just not to be used as a control tool…it’s for youth, vitality, strength, flexibility, release of emotions, etc. I really have a great sponsor! Having said that…I am calm and normal again this morning…and I would still like to tighten up my stomach…so I did take the measurements…waist 30….ab area 34…and I did the 20 minute Winsor Pilates…I wrote down the exercises a long time ago so I can do them in front of the t.v….so it really took about 10 or 15 minutes…I don’t need the explanation every time. My plan is to do it Wed, Sat and Sun…I do The Firm on Mon and Thurs and Yoga on Tues and Fri….I feel great when I’m doing this…but if I miss one…I just carry on to the next thing….it’s ok….it’s a lifestyle…not a marathon. It’s a beautiful sunny day here…we’re going to go to church…then I want to clean my car….we’ll see if I still do later : )

Exercise

I’m feeling a little nervous…ok…a lot….when you’re a compulsive obsessive person…the middle road on this kind of thing is easy to get off of. Funny, I just said yesterday that I can wear white…I did tonight…with my new jeans…Alexis said it made me look big…and the jeans felt a little snug….my weight was fine on Thursday…but I’m still freaking out a bit. When I started “spring cleaning” a few weeks ago…I slowed down on my workouts…I figured that I was getting enough exercise with the cleaning…well now my stomach seems bigger….I wasn’t even thinking about any of this a few hours ago…now I’m obsessing…any way…I stopped doing Pilates quite a few months ago…and I’m going to start again in the morning…I’ll let you know how it goes….I’m going to measure my waist and abs in the morning too…then in a couple of weeks.

Eric just walked by and told me again that I looked really good…but I’m still going to do the Pilates and measurements. I ate at an all you can eat buffet…I like them because I can get enough vegetables with out paying a lot more….but now I’m looking back at it wondering if I ate too many beans…I think I did…I think I need to just go to bed and end this day and be normal again tomorrow. Good night Gracie : )